Checking In


Goodness, it's been a while!  Which is a good thing because it's means I've been in a good head space.

So, what's been happening? Well, I mentioned in my last blog that 2022 had started with a lot of potential.  This was mainly due to meeting a lovely man who I had already connected with a few days in.  We are still going strong and he gets me.  I don't have to hide anything from him, I can just be who I am and talk to him about how I'm feeling and it's awesome!

My walking started off strong, but I have been feeling a bit disheartened about it over the last month or so and even really down about it the last week.

 There is a lot of nasty "bugs" around at the moment, that everyone seems to be getting because our immune systems haven't been exposed to them over the last 2 years. Now that we are all allowed out and about without masks, we are suddenly exposed to things with low immune systems.  As a result, my son and myself have had a bit of time at home with "symptoms" of covid - I can't send him to school with symptoms.  I also wasn't feeling up to walking or couldn't because I had to isolate - and so got disheartened because I was falling behind on my goal and put too much pressure on myself and wasn't enjoying it.

What did I do? I rang my sister of course!  She is doing the challenge with me and is going great guns.  She reminded me that the fact that I have started the challenge to start with is all that matters and that I am working towards the goal.  IF I don't manage to hit 1000km by 31/12 this year, I can start again next year and just keep going until I hit it.  

So today, I went for a walk and it felt amazing.  It was a beautiful day, I wasn't putting any pressure on myself and I was just enjoying my surroundings with no pressure.  I've been home most of the last week with a sick boy and it was just so great to be out there.  It put me in such a great mood and really lifted my spirits.

When I finished, I looked at my total so far.  I am at day 83 and I have walked 186km.  All of a sudden I realised that this averages out to be more than 2km per day, even though there have been days I haven't walked or walked less than the goal needed to reach the 1000, and THAT is more than I was walking per day back in October when I first started walking.  I need to remember that, and celebrate that success.

On Sunday 3rd April my new man and I will be walking 6km to raise funds for Dementia.  My Aunty has dementia and so does my good friend Kerrie's Mum.  So we're walking for them.  I can't imagine having to see someone you love fading away before your eyes.  It was hard enough seeing my Nanna and then my Dad not know where they were or who their loved ones were just before passing, and that was only for a few days.  If anyone would like to sponsor us, I have pinned the link to the top of my LiMo's Mission 1000 page on facebook.

As always, to anyone that needs it,

HUGS xxx



 

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