Big and bright bubbles
Life is good. I am happier than I've been in a long time.
I still have bad days, or moments (I'll come back to this) but on the whole, life is good.
So.... what to write about? Well, I've been having a read back through what I have written over the last year or so. My first reaction was to delete some of them or edit so that they read better or sound better. But that's not what this blog is all about is it? It's about how I'm feeling at the time and getting out those feelings so that I can move on or make sense of it all. So they will stay there, warts and all (including spelling and grammar mistakes).
Something I've been meaning to write about for a little while is something that kept me awake one night. A bit of an insight into my mind and how it (over) works.
I was laying there listening to a guided meditation to try and get to sleep and they mentioned living in the "moment". Instead of just accepting that this means being present in your life in what is going on now, instead of contemplating the past or thinking about the future, my mind went somewhere completely different.
What is a moment? I ask myself. How long is a moment? How can you be in the moment when the moment has already been and gone? Is a moment right now, but no it can't be, because right now has already gone. How long does a moment last? When people say "in that moment", how do the define what or how long that moment was?
Calling out - "I won't be a moment", that's great, but how long WILL you be?
Or "I'll just be a moment" - what moment, whose moment, is it longer than a minute or shorter?
Eventually of course I fell asleep, but this is the course my mind can take when it's supposed to be winding down and sleeping.
I went to a craft show on the weekend because I've been wanting to learn how to needle felt. I had a ball, I actually enjoyed being out and around people. I think being in a good head space helps, but the biggest thing was I went on my own and I didn't have to think about whether I was holding anyone up or anxious about not taking too long or not long enough. It was really lovely.
Anyway, I'm not sure whether the needle felting was a good idea or bad idea. I already have a lot of crafts that I do and didn't REALLY need another one. But I wanted to learn, and I LOVED IT!!! So of course that night I couldn't sleep because all of these ideas were going through my head about what I can make and do. I've already made a few things. I'll be keeping the more "artwork" type ones on this blog and my facebook page in the same name.
This is my first attempt. It would sit in the palm of your hand. I'm calling it "Iris by the Sea"
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