Mind Field of Bubbles

 It's R U OK day here in Australia today. It's a day where mental health is the focus but they are also trying to bring awareness not just on this day but everyday in checking in on your mates, and knowing how to handle a situation when someone says that no, they are not ok. I think we are all guilty of telling people we are OK when we are actually not. I've had a really hard week emotionally.  My Nanna would have been 100 on the 2nd of this month and I would have been married 14 years.... I technically have been even though we've been separated for nearly 6. Then Father's Day.... the second one without my Dad, which is hard enough on it's own without adding into that the fact that I can't go across the border to see my family and be with them on that special day and visit him and be with my Mum who I haven't seen for 6 months. And of course, because I wasn't coping very well last week, I pushed my partner away when I actually needed him the most, be...

 I've been wanting to write this one for a little while, but it is a very touchy subject and I don't want to upset anyone. So.... before you read this, know that it is my view and is what I believe - that doesn't mean I am right. Before I start, take the time to read and digest this quote:  I am hoping you are still with me and still willing to read what I have to say. Some people will have a very strong negative reaction to that quote and I would just like to say it might be worth thinking about why before reading the rest of this.  Hugs to you xxx My thought pattern jumps around a little bit in this one but I hope it still makes sense. Let me start by saying I am the youngest of 4.  The youngest by a large age gap.  This meant that by the time I came along my brother had been used to being the youngest for 7 years.  I was  VERY spoilt by EVERYONE and got away with EVERYTHING. I treated my Mum like shit. I had my Dad wrapped around my little finger....