Unprecedented times

When this is all over, if I never hear the phrase "unprecedented times" again it will be too soon.

Victoria (Australia) is in lock down again, primarily because people in Melbourne can't do the right thing and stay home - or apparently keep their pants up!

I've had a little moment, nothing compared to the one when I ended up resigning, but a moment all the same.

I miss my Mum. I miss my sister.  I miss my best friend since kindergarten. I just want to see them and cuddle them and get cranky with Mum for the way I think she's judging me, cry with my sister because I need to and laugh with my bestie coz that's how we roll.  BUT they live in another state so I'm not sure when I will get there to see them.  I am blessed I still have my Mum and that I can speak to her on the phone whenever I want to.  I count my blessings all the while knowing that I am allowed to feel the way I feel.  Other people are going through it too, some worse off, and you know what? It's STILL ok for me to feel the way I feel.  

My son is with me this time and hasn't seen his Dad for a month and won't see him until this is all over.  The poor kid.  We've both had enough of each other, he gets upset for no reason (there is obviously an underlying reason), I'm short with him because I need "me" time and we're just sick of each others company.  We talk about it.  We tell it like it is, and we both know it's OK that we are feeling that way.

This time around he will still be going to school because my new job means I work for an essential service and so can't home school him.  It might just keep us both sane.  While it is not ideal, my work and the school are doing everything they can to keep everyone safe.

I need to wear a mask to work everyday even though there are only 2 of us in the office.  And you know what? I'm more than OK with that. 

So my advice and request to you:

Give yourself permission to be angry.  Give yourself permission to cry and scream and do whatever you need to to just feel a tiny bit better.  But please, do the right thing.  Stay home when you can.  Don't bend or break the rules because you think they don't apply to you, or because you think the government is controlling us.  There are real people dying out there.  We all need to do all we can, as hard as it is, and just get through this "unprecedented time".

Love and hugs xxx