Mind Field of Bubbles

Today has been shit. I am exhausted.  I knocked off work early because I felt like I was going to fall asleep at my desk. I came home and slept for 5 hours, and I'm still exhausted but now I'm also overwhelmed, emotional and teary. I mentioned in my last blog that I'm not going "home" for Christmas.  Well, I think that has really hit home today (no pun intended).  Along with the fact that the beautiful lady I'm walking for passed away yesterday and didn't get to have her amazing Christmas with her family has just knocked me for 6.   I didn't walk today.  I just couldn't bring myself to get out there in the world today. But tomorrow is a whole new day and I will make up for it. My boy went off to his Dad's yesterday and will be there for nearly a month.  I know I need the break but I'm going to miss him like crazy. The other thing that happens when I don't have him is there is time for me to think about what is going on with me, and that...

  For those of you who don't know.  I live in Victoria, Australia, but I'm originally from South Australia.   All my family are in South Australia.  Because of covid, I have hardly seen them over the last couple of years.  The last time I saw them was in May, and now I won't be seeing them for Christmas either because of this.... So... I finish work on Wednesday 22nd of December and we also have our work break up that night which I want to go to.  So, I would have to go and be tested on Thursday 23rd and isolate until I receive my negative result, which, if I was lucky, would be Friday 24th.  So then I would travel to SA, but I can't go straight to my Mum's because then I need to go and have ANOTHER test and isolate on arrival - don't know where I'm getting the money to pay to stay somewhere to isolate, because I can't isolate with my Mum - so by the time I get the result back from this one would be at least Christmas Day. I don't understand why y...