Mind Field of Bubbles

  I did it! With one day left to go, I have walked about 51.8km for the month of October to raise awareness for Mental Health and to raise funds for research into Mental Health. I have signed up next month with my sister in law to do 60km for November (2km a day) to raise funds for Ovarian Cancer.  I figure if I have made a commitment, I have a goal and will keep going.   Everyday I am keen to get out there for my walk at the moment.  While I am walking I can be in a bit of pain and tend to think "what the fuck am I doing, this hurts!", but it is not for long and the benefits far outweigh the pain.  It is not about losing weight at the moment, I have lost a bit as a bi-product but it is not my main focus.  There may come a point when it is, but for now it's about my mental well being. Today is a double edged sword for me.  I am so bloody proud of myself and took myself out for dinner to celebrate, but at the same time, I was lonely. I think this w...

Nearly halfway through the month and nearly halfway to my walking target. I started off with a fundraising target of $200 but have doubled that since receiving a significant donation from a beautiful friend.  I'll come back to this in a minute. Today was the first time I have walked without absolutely having to stop for my hips.  They are usually screaming at me to sit - just for a minute - at about the halfway mark.  Not today!  I think it's a combination of the getting used to walking and the new shoes I bought! Walking everyday is certainly doing wonders for my mental health.  So much so that I can't even tell you what I think about while I'm walking.  I know I admire the scenery and look at people's gardens and see all the beauty there is in the world, but I have no idea what my thoughts are.  It's good for me in more ways than one, that's for sure.   I've always known walking is good for both physical and mental health, but until you fin...

  This photo is the park where I went walking this evening.  It was the perfect spot to finish off a fantastic day. I've had a pretty awesome week actually.  I'm feeling really positive about life in general. Yesterday's hurdle was just that.  A tiny little hurdle which I made into a high jump.   That is what I do sometimes.  I make things much worse than they actually are in my head. I am my own worst enemy sometimes, I know that. You know what though?  I am so proud of myself for getting on here and getting it all out of my system so that I didn't let it bottle up and explode at work.   I let it go.  I accepted it for what it was.  Something that I could have handled a lot better. As a result, I had a great night's sleep and a fantastic day at work.  I didn't lay awake all night overthinking, worrying, getting angry or emotional about it.  I got it out of my system on here and handled it really well at work today wh...

Are you like me? Do you work better and harder and happier when you are praised as well as being pulled up when you need to be? I don't do well at all when I'm picked up for everything I do wrong, but no thanks or recognition for doing things well.  There needs to be balance.   I thought about not writing this because the person concerned may read it.  Then I thought if I didn't, I would stew on it all night and that's not good either.  I don't want to get upset about it at work. I had a really good day today.  I was really proud of myself for keeping things under control at work when my boss was uncontactable for the day. Things went relatively smoothly.   We always confirm our jobs for the next day with our customers, especially during covid.  We have jobs out of town tomorrow and one of the first ones is a considerable way out of town and I hadn't had confirmation from them. So I tried to ring and there was no answer (I think I forgot to p...